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I miss xanga. Looks like they had a lot of updates. It's still very user friendly! I'm at Livejournal now (I know, I joined the other side) so if you wanna read it: http://iwearvansshoes.livejournal.com/
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| Don't worry, I'm here. I haven't died. I've been busy! Busy with life and college! I'd figure I'd write in here since I have the inspiration to catalog some experiences!
Life has been very interesting since my last post. I've been to some concerts, got a WONDERFUL girlfriend, furthered my philosophical/religious studies journey, experimented with drugs, and some other stuff.
I'm not sure where to begin. I guess I'll talk about music stuff since I tend to talk about it at least once in the majority of my posts. Right now, my suitemate and her friends are watching Across the Universe with the song "Hey Jude" playing in the background. Awesome. Love it. Anyways, I've been getting some great inspirations to write new music (finally!). Since I've been listening to a lot of black metal, death metal, and some stoner/sludge metal, I've been influenced to write songs with that style. I've been getting pretty serious on the drums, like working on double bass with the feet and blast beats and gravity blasts with 'duh hands. Jay and I are plan on asking the parents for only a really nice drum set this upcoming Christmas (since we're too poor to pay for it ourselves). That would be nice. In the mean time, I've been trying to find good programs that have nice drum samples so I don't have to mic my shitty set. In other music news, I found a good friend of mine who has almost the exact taste of music as me and Jay (FUCKING FINALLY). Hey Alex! He's cool as shit. I guess I could consider him as one of my best friends now. I'm dying to jam with him...or to just jam in general. I think something great could come out of it. .....I've also decided to get pretty serious about the music stuff after college. Yeah, I could still jam and stuff, but if I want to wait until I graduate if I'm going to take it to the next level. It'll happen, dammit. I want to at least do a east coast tour for one summer. That would be baller.
In concert news, I've been to a few (and missed a few). Shortly before my last post, three bands that I realllllly wanted to see came to my area ALL IN THE SAME WEEK....DURING FUCKING FINALS. Baddd timing, guys. Bad fucking timing. The Sword, Baroness, and Gwar. Three bands that I've been dying to see for a while and I had to miss all of them. At least I can make up for The Sword because I will definitely be seeing them on May 15th at the Rock and Roll Hotel. Sometime in January, I saw In This Moment, Rob Zombie, and Ozzy at the Verizon Center in DC. Pretty cool show. Very theatrical. I would have been more into it if I had known more songs from all the bands, but it was Christmas gift and my parents don't know exactly who I listen to...but it was great gift! I really enjoyed the show! Umm, saw Tiger Army and Street Dogs. They were both awesome. I saw SDs twice, actually. Once at the Black Cat with TA and the other at Shamrock Fest in DC. They put on a great show. It was nice going to a good ol' punk rawk show to mosh and crowd surf. Haven't done that since high school. Just this past weekend, I saw Behemoth and Dimmu Borgir with Keep of Kalessin. All of them were phenomenal. Behemoth is turning out to be one of my favorite bands. I'm looking forward to see who plays at Ozzfest this year. I wanna go to it again. It was a wonderful experience back in 05. But the one metal festival I have been dyyyyyiinnnnggg to go to for the past few years is Wacken Open Air in Wacken, Germany. Three days of (almost) non-stop heavy metal. Every metal genre from underground grim, Norwegian black metal to poppy, Hot Topic-labeled nu-metal. I almost went this summer, but no one was willing to go or have the sufficient funds. But next summer (of 09), will be the moment of truth. Wacken will be my graduation present. Jason wants to go really bad, as well that guy Alex and my girlfriend, Mary. It will be amazing.
Speaking of amazing and girlfriends, Mary has come into my life. She's amazing. This Thursday will be our two month anniversary, even though it feels like we've known each other for a year. We get along so freaking well that its scary. Scary in a "Josh with boobs and vagina" scary. Scary in a "fuck I love horror movies" scary. Scary in a "Scary Spice" scary. I imagine us being together for a long time. Definitely at least a year, but I'm hoping for more  . For the next couple months, our monthly anniversaries will be spent in an unintentional, yet ironically appropriate romantic get-a-ways. This upcoming weekend, for our two month, Mary and I will driving down to Tennessee together to attend her best friend's wedding and chilling in a hotel. Just the two of us. For our three month, she will accompany me and the rest of my immediate family while we vacay' in Rehoboth Beach for a week. Not only will my family be renting out a room in the "swiss cheese hotel" we used to rent out when I was a lot younger, which will provide nostalgia and a very short walking distance to the beach (can you say "ocean front hotel room"?), but I will be sleeping, partying, sun-bathing, arcading, shopping, swimming, etc. with Mary!!! Needless to say, I am fucking stoked beyond all belief. For our four month, I will spending a week with Mary's family in Ocean City for July 4th. Totally awesome. Awesome awesome awesome. Who knows what August holds for the both of us? Perhaps a trip to an amusement park? New York City? A trip to Hawaii? A trip to the MOON? We'll see! ...And a short note, Mary has officially taken my v-card...actually, she practically shredded it, hahaha!
Hmm...school news? I'm still majoring in philosophy and minoring in religious studies. Its very challenging, and it has its stressful moments. Sometimes, I wish I was a music major and business/econ minor. Whatever, can't switch now. Besides, its not like I don't enjoy being a philosophy. It just has its moments where its overwhelming on stuff I could give a shit about...mainly western philosophy. Seriously, fuck that shit. Its too...scientific. I'm more partial to Eastern philosophy, particularly South Asian philosophy. Its so poetic. It captures something Western philosophy doesn't have, which I can't put my finger on. I guess you can say its the mysticism. Maybe I'm just injecting the mysticism into Eastern thought based some of my personal spiritual experiences, or I'm trying to find the mysticism in Western thought and failing. Then again, there is one thing in Western philosophy that is useful and thats being able to analyze the living shit out of things and bracketing things. Phenomenology, if you will. Thats the two big words I have come to love--phenomenology and hermeneutics. They're so intimidating to non-philosophy educated people! "To take a phenomenological approach....blah blah blah" Gotta love it. I've been working on my St. Mary's Project a little bit, but I ran into a fairly big problem along the way. I started it wayyyy too late, almost to the point where I needed (my parents) to pay an extra $10,000 for another semester to be able to work on it. But since I'm awesome, I saved them (and my future self) the money, and myself the time. I'm going to write something along the lines of a philosophy I created call the Fractal Theory. It still needs a lot of work. We'll see what happens.
And, well, on the topic of philosophy and spirituality, I did something that helped my spiritual journey, but in a less academic way. This is the part of my entry that some people may not agree to me doing. If you have an opinion about it, I would like to hear it. I would just like for you select readers to know that my decision for doing such activities were not pressured on me at all--it was all my own free will. Ladies and gentlemen, I have done mushrooms. And, boy, were they interesting. I really don't feel like getting too in-depth with my experience with them because I have had to retell my experience numerous times. Here's the Wikipedia info about hallucinogenic mushrooms. Read about the effects because its pretty accurate to what I experienced. Here's a quick summary. My whole trip was about 6 hours long, and it can be split into about 3 parts. The first part was enjoyable. I could feel myself getting high, though I did have a few moments of nausea. It just kind hits you. Things looked funny. The rug was moving. People's faces were very squarish, and there was a purple haze over everything. The tv I was watching was very vibrant and colorful. The second portion of my trip came to pretty damn hard. I was walking back to my room with Mary, who was also on 'shrooms (and any kind of illegal drug) for the first time. After that first pleasurable hour, I got smacked hard and everything just went fucking crazy. I laid in my bed, closed my eyes and went on a introspective, philosophical trip to who the fuck knows where. It was in-fucking-tense. I really cannot put into words what I was experiencing, but I can assure you that I was not experiencing reality in the least bit. It was very very very interesting. Once I finally came to, Mary had left, my desk lamp was knocked down, my dirty laundry was all over the floor, my clock was knocked down, and I was freaking the fuck out. The last portion of my trip was bad. I vaguely remember Mary yelling at me and leaving (we're fine...apparently we broke up while we were high, hahah), Jason coming in to see if I was fine, and my phone ringing. I listened to my voice mail with Mary crying, saying something along the line of "Give me a call, I want to see if you're ok. I have people with me." Then I remembered Jason coming in saying something about people being with him. Then I remembered Mary yelling at me while I was tripping mad balls. I started freaking out thinking the cops were coming to get me and that I would get arrested. I called Mary, had her come over along with Jason, and everything was completely fine. Mary told me her story and I told her mine, and we laughed it off. To sum everything up, I never get a briefing on what to expect, how to take the mushrooms, and how to keep myself from having a bad trip. Overall, I just took too much, too fast and I should have stayed with people. The question is now: would I do it again? Maybe, but not for a while. I'll just stick with the occasional bong hit. Heh.
I don't know what else to say. I think I'll go to bed and get up early to work on my essays. I HAVE to get them done by this Friday so I can go to Tennessee. I have a 12-15 page paper and a 5-7 page paper. I can do it. No problem. Alright, time for bed! This entry is long enough.
(ps. I"m looking forward to doing nothing but work and play video games this summer....and hang out with Mary.)
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| Fuckin' bitches, man. Fuckin' bitches.
I'll give a quick update on my life thus far. Nothing too interesting.
-Finished the semester with good grades
-Moved out of the suite I didn't like (as I mentioned in the last entry). I'm living with Dan Castle now and some other awesome. It'll be exciting.
-Had a bunch of really great parties. Got drunk. Got high. Gotta problem? Fuck off, its fun and its college.
-Might possibly be doing a fashion show. That'll be interesting.
-Started playing World of Warcraft again. God help me.
-I'm single...again. Fucking boo. On the 8 month anniversary and 2 days before Christmas. You can't beat that!
-Got a lot of great classes coming up next semester.
-Plan on getting a tattoo this summer.
I wanna read more. I have so many books I want to read or finish reading. Moby Dick. The Divine Comedy. Malleus Maleficarum. A bunch of other books in my "library". I really wanna get serious with music. I keep saying this, and I never do it. Someday, I just need to say "fuck it".
I'm waiting for Christmas. I want to get lost in Super Mario Galaxy and any of the other stuff I get. Whatever, I don't feel like typing anymore. I shouldn't be 'cuz I'm bitter right now. I hate being single already. I'll tough it out. Like I always do.
David Bowie rocks.
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| Oh yeah, I have a Xanga. Its been ages--or months--since I've written in this blog.
I tell you what, I miss writing in here. I'm sure people read it when they get their daily e-mail subscriptions, but are too lazy to comments. Whatever. Its not like I'm gonna use those eProps for anything...like I would Pepsi Points. I've always imagined eProps as Pepsi Points for some reason.
So I guess you wanna know what has been going on--moreso, I will be recollecting the past several months to myself. Nothing profoundly interesting. I'm attending St. Mary's college which is always awesome, except for my shitty roommates. I was thrown in with a bunch of jocks who I have no desire to chat. They're either drinking, playing soccer, or wrestling in the hallway. Totally macho, guys. Personally, their actions are borderline homosexual, particularly Tommy. Whatever. I should be careful. Theres a possibility they could Facebook stalk me and read this.
Oh well. If you're reading this, I'm trying to get a room change as fast as possible. So be happy.
On a lighter note, I has a girlfriend. She's the shit. I'm sure she'll end up reading this and get red in the face. SO <333. CAN HAS?
So Caturday and "I can has cheezburger?" quotes have officially become the language of choice down here in St. Mary's, as well as cracking incredibly inappropriate jokes that take it far beyond crossing the line. And its beautiful.
Education wise, I'm majoring in philosophy. I have no idea what I'm gonna do with it, but, you know what, I don't care what I'm gonna do with it. Its for a personal gain. Plus, I plan on working for a recording studio or company after college. I may even double major in recording arts. Pretty banging, huh? Hopefully I won't be recording shitty local punk/metalcore bands. As you may know, my heart is set to music--in the key of music if you want to be punny. I don't ever wanna leave it. Seriously. Everything I do is somehow related to music. Every activity I do involves music, whether I'm walking, tapping my fingers in class, or typing this blog entry. Right now, I'm thinking of ways to start a band with just me and Jason since we can never find anyone else with the same musical ideals. I'm not saying my goal is to be in band, but it would definitely be nice. Music is my catharsis, and I'm gonna need it the rest of my life. It is the only thing I completely understand.
I miss all my NHS buddies dearly. I miss the old ways. I miss high school and the vulnerability of getting into "trouble". I miss when things such as skipping class and staying up late and sneaking out the house were so taboo. I miss the stage. I miss all the inside jokes, which I hoped haven't died. I'm still in contact with two of my best friends, which is amazing and we still have timeless adventures. Some friends seemed to have moved on and almost completely forgotten about me, which is very disappointing. Have fun guys, I'm sure we'll get back in contact soon, even though it will probably be very awkward.
Then again, I've been experiencing some pretty wild adventures here at St. Mary's. In a sense, they seem taboo, but then again, its almost a taste of the real world. Like when I was almost sent to the school jail-----from "surfing" on top of my car that was moving only a foot into the parking space. Dumbasses. Anyways, hopefully the near future will surprise me with great, timeless memories. I have less than 2 years to go before I graduate college. Jesus. I remember when I started this thing, I was a freshmen in high school, writing entries about blink-182 and obsessing over girls who I couldn't get. And posting shitty gothy poems. Oh those were the days. The days of yore.
Well, I'm gonna put some effort into this essay that is due, oh.........3 WEEKS AGO. Its cool, the professor doesn't really have policy on late papers so I'm good. I'm gonna go now because I think the roommates are back....drunk. Awesome, I can't wait.
Music interests as of late: Black Metal and David Bowie. Oh yeah. Ziggy Stardust and the Possessed Spiders from The Ninth-Martian Level of Hell.
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